LovesJ

Over you - Chris Daughtry

2011-11-27T16:56:00.001+08:00

wish you well wish you all the best. promise me you dont come back after this.
i dont need you to do so, my only request so that i can move on and pick up the pieces from all these years.

2011-10-15T23:32:00.001+08:00

Neither here nor there.

2011-08-18T23:46:00.001+08:00

Give me a direction so I know which way to go. Will you?
Because my heart doesn't follow my mind, my mind doesn't follow my heart. How? I don't feel good... At all:(

As it is.

2011-08-08T01:11:00.001+08:00

'true friends'

2011-07-27T03:04:00.002+08:00

i think i heard this coming from you twice or thrice.
it doesnt make sense in any way .
really, good luck and all the best.
Im utterly disappointed and my angers gone, im so tired to even think....

same applies to me, thanks for reminding..

It all ended

2011-07-07T11:25:00.001+08:00

At least we tried.
The only thing im asking for is you to be happy.

Goodbye my one and only.

Double C

2011-06-17T20:18:00.001+08:00

First day of work was good:)
Friendly colleagues, best of all friendly CM.
Best part, time flies.
But that very one thing is really bothering me.. Sigh. Or probably two.
Keeping my fingers crossed, really.
:(

And BKK was really loved, with you of course summing everything up.

When?

2011-06-01T04:23:00.001+08:00

How did it ended up like this?
I swear I miss those times when things are so much simpler... really..

That's that

2011-05-08T22:13:00.001+08:00

Phobia.....

Oh Goldie~~

2011-05-04T23:09:00.001+08:00

Tired but I like!
Right I'm v tight now. Just bought a hair dryer when I don't even use it. Just for the make up class.
Bought a hair mannequin which made me jumped.
And all sorts of comb n brushes n clips n I don't know what. Sucks....

Chanel's offering me this job with quite a low basic pay. But comm wise it should be high. High, but how high? I don't know.
Chanel eh, atas brand how come like that..

Going for second interview this coming friday, as well as bobbi brown's. Hate making decision!

I just want to be a makeup artist.. And it's taking such a looooooooong way :(

This coming sat would be my sis's big day! N that makes her Mrs Ching:) glad that everythings happening so quickly so that everyone could take some rest. And right after that it would be my exam. Portfolio. There u see my money rolling out again. Crap...

Sigh oh sigh, been whining through. Shouldn't be like this! Okay I shall sleep now! Good night!

Wonderful feast minus the diarrhea

2011-05-01T22:31:00.002+08:00

Crab feast at ECP.
In fact i like the feeling.. the feeling of being together.. since secondary school days..
Don't expect much but hopefully we will still be like this till old.
Once awhile, we will have MJ, once awhile we will have feast.

So nice..

Am I?

2011-04-26T01:57:00.001+08:00

Pondering over and over again.
At first thought I was over the moon.
At second thought, here comes anxious.
Third, self assurance. Is this what I want?
Fourth, am I able to cope with retail line again? Meddling with sales again?
Sigh.. The thought of meeting new people... The thought of being the 'new girl'.. I really don't like:(

Come to think of it.. I'm not even being interviewed yet. What's there to worry yet? Ha-haaaa :/

It's Chanel btw.. This Friday..

Animal face painting

2011-04-19T11:48:00.001+08:00

This is my new pet, called furry.
:) love how it looked furry at the cheek area.. Though I know there are many rooms for improvements. But pardon me for this is my first try. ;)

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2011-04-07T14:22:00.000+08:00

I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life? Tell me, how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while

You've been good, busier than ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up, and I know why

Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses, and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December all the time

These days, I haven't been sleeping
Staying up, playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed, and I didn't call

Then I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side
And realized I loved you in the fall

And then the cold came, the dark days
When fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love, and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry

Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand

This is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time, all the time

2011-04-07T14:03:00.001+08:00

3 and a half years.
meant nothing at all?
You sure?

when too much is no good.

2011-04-07T13:58:00.002+08:00

I don't know, i suspect i have split personality.
during the day and night.
in the day i can tell myself to stop, to move on, to let go.
but when its in the night. i cant do it.
and when i realised, i have made people around me worried.
sigh. i dont want this either, but i cant control myself.
i don't expect or need other people's attention, only yours.

You mean so much to me, despite all...
Sigh... Oh, tell what am i supposed to do now.......
because they don't know.. :'(

I don't want to....

2011-04-05T11:40:00.002+08:00

I really don't want to.... :(

L O S T

2011-04-02T23:59:00.001+08:00

Cb this hot weather is making things worst! I feel very very very frustrated. Like seriously, whats happening? Ya right, tell me I'm taking things for granted. Tell me I'm the absurd one. Tell me I'm the ridiculous one. Tell me I'm the one who screwed it up. And you know what? I hate this stubborn, strong headed attitude of mine.
I know I have to do sthg but I can't bring myself to give in. I can't bring myself to accept I'm in the wrong.
Cb. Since young, my mom my dad my sister THEY ALL GIVE IN TO ME BIG TIME! I just can't do it:(
Argh! Like seriously my ego is killing meeee. Slowly.. It's the same wherever I go.. Sigh... I wish I'm just one dumb girl and fullstop.
Sigh.. Sucks to be me..

Right or left?

2011-03-29T00:45:00.001+08:00

I have been asking myself did I make the right decision?
Would I regret one day?
Is there still love?
But why am I still.........
It's difficult, it's different.

How? Why? Can you prove me that I'm wrong?

I hate when you don't speak up, what in the world do you want? Could you tell me?
Tell me.. And I will know.
Tell me and I will trust.
Tell me that everything's okay. Tell me that it was just a nightmare.
Tell me...
You would improve.......

But please, the only last thing I want to know is you have changed..

Growing up

2011-03-08T21:49:00.001+08:00

While waiting for TBJ, I'm gonna blog a little while.
So for today, we did special effects. With all the bruises, cuts and scars. And hell yes, it looks real! Haha! That old uncle was staring at my knee!

As mentioned, my title: growing up.
I start to realize the importance of my complexion. I wanna get SK2! By this month! :) I'm so gonna invest on facial products! I don't want to have old saggy skin by the age of.. Say 35? Just want to stay pretty! ^^

Can't wait for this course to end, can't wait to graduate and move on from there! Hmm... And you know what's my next goal? I feel like saving up again and going abroad to learn more about make up. So cool! Imagine me saying: oh I went to.. Say... France? to further my make up skills.

Aiyo... So proud! And seriously I don't like to boast nor I'm a proud person because I don't have the ability to show off, but this is something worth showing off right?? Haa, my next goal uh.. Probably give myself 2 years to save? Not cheap eh... :/ aye, see how it goes k? :)

Okay TBJ is still not here.. I'm kinda hungry again!

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Location:Orchard Rd,Singapore,Singapore

Breaktime

2011-03-05T00:48:00.001+08:00

Gonna order some brushes online and yes Coastal Scents again. Cheap and good service! And yay because the brushes are selling cheap, boo to the expensive shipment! Sigh!!
I think it's really ex to get good brushes in SG too. :(

Party tmr night, I hope I won't spend much. Wanna save for my Bkk trip! And I've postponed my trip to June... I think the bkk deal from deal.com.sg is just crap.
Pure gimmick that's all and thank god they refunded me. So people, think before buying, don't act on impulsive! (just like meee)

Mood swinging~~

2011-03-03T03:56:00.001+08:00

Hmm kinda boring with make up class lately. :X it's like doing the same thing these few weeks. Hopefully it would get btr soon!

Hate this feelinggggg.. :(

Location:Woodlands Avenue 2,Singapore,Singapore

2011-02-25T02:05:00.001+08:00

Went all the way to Orchard Central just for Missha but I did not get what I wanted. Sigh! Even the exact eyeliner I have was of different texture, different price.

Sometimes when I research bout make ups, I get quite paranoid. Eyeliner isn't just eyeliner. It's lead, you get what I mean? And hence, ignorance is a bliss, not?

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Don't feel like moving

2011-02-24T15:03:00.001+08:00

Aye, smart phones are really cool. Cooler than anything.
Having bad cramps now, don't feel like moving. If only TBJ is home:( but can't either, if he is home I won't feel like going to class alr. Boohooooooo~~~ cramp sucks!

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Location:Bukit Panjang Ring Rd,Singapore,Singapore

Trying to blog through Blogpress

2011-02-22T21:50:00.001+08:00

What shocked me was I had this allergic from laksa and soy milk.
My eyes, ears neck and back were red and swollen. I look like pig with disfigured eyes.
Anyway it's over(: $94 for this laksa meal wasn't cheap.

Didn't go for class today. Don't really have the feel, kinda seh with the flu med and all.

1960s for today and I supposed it should be the Twiggy style make up. It's quite simple I assume. :/ hope my partner rmbs to whatsapp me the aftermath.

Been looking at brushes because the school's brushes are like crap. The hair is falling off, it pricked my skin. And I don't know if it's me or the brushes. Anyway, I saw Michelle Phan using this kabuki brush, it looks super cute and soft. Just wondering is it worth trying.. N is IQQU somehow affiliated with Michelle Phan? So cool~

I like how things are now but sometimes I feel guilty for not going home though mom didn't say much. I don't like the fact that I have to share my room with sist's manicure stuff. I don't like. Is it ocd or sthg? I feel that im stuffed in a room reeking of alcohol/chemical and powder or whatsoever. Argh I just dont like! :(( Hope she has her own parlor soon....... :(

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Location:Home Woodlands

2011

2011-01-24T01:23:00.003+08:00

been kinda broke during the beginning of the year, but am doing well recently ;)
mm, how's 2011 for me?
well, i should say, nice (:
i got into the course i wanted, though i do not know how prospective it is.. but at least i've got what i wanted.
In fact, I'm very excited over our bintan trip as well as bkk.
this time round im gonna save like 1k to shop!

shop, eat, massage, relax! so shiok~~~
May would be the best month for this year! Whyyyyy?????
You see, on the 3rd its my birthday.
on the 7th, its my sist BIG day.
on the following weekend, it would be my bkk trip!
and i forgot, on either one of Thursday..... It's the end of the course!

Can't wait to call myself a Professional! :D
I'm waiting, May :))))

been rather busy lately, days are always fully scheduled.
I hope its all worth it;) and oh, I am also very excited over CNY!!
because CNY is the only reason for me to splurgeeeeeeeeee~ and this is the only time.
trust me! (:

goodbye 2010 (:

2010-12-29T19:14:00.002+08:00

Like what I've said, I guess 2010 is the most fulfilling one I have among all my 20 years. nevertheless, I would want 2011 to be the same too!!
My new year resolution is simple, to be happy always and not hesitate anymore!
After this course, I will get myself going for another one which will cost like double of it. Hmmm, same routine again... but I'm SURE it WOULD be worthwhile.
You know? the feeling of wanting and having it at last.... this is the feeling of accomplishment! It's very satisfying... (:

2010 oh 2010, what have I been doing?
Slogging hard, saving hard, getting myself into this school (:
Perhaps, it sounds simple for anybody else.. but trust me, I am very proud of myself!

Don't feel like talking bout 2010 because I believe, if something is really worth keeping as memory, it will be kept safely.

So, let's all cheers and welcome 2011 (:
I want it to be good! and i really WANT it! <3

2010-11-12T19:31:00.002+08:00

when one concerns so much about redundant stuffs.
and chose not to face reality...
why choose to believe the past and not move on?

hmmm..
anyway i hope 2011 would be here in anytime.....

feel so happy for my sist (:
and yes, 一定要幸福！ (:

If only....

2010-10-28T01:19:00.003+08:00

It's weird how things are now. You stirred it up, but you never know how to calm it down. Tired of trying anymore...

what would it be like?

2010-09-24T20:55:00.002+08:00

If only there are textbooks for life.....

speechless.

2010-08-23T21:05:00.003+08:00

I had fun.

2010-08-20T19:54:00.002+08:00

Hmmmm... which to choooooose?
Decisions are always hard to make.
Is this the right path for me?
Hmmmm...........

Alright, I will get through this soon..
Real soon..

It's funny in a way you see changes in life.
You see changes in other people's life whom you once befriended with and gradually somehow lost contact.
When you use to be soooo close.. and suddenly became strangers.
People put on a mask to hide, hide whatever it is to make them look good.
But never did they realised... HA HA..

Hmm... I should say this is life.
And yes, time are changing..
People are no longer the same as before.
Are you able to catch up with it? (:

I am happy, happy for my sister and future sister-in-laws (:
Tying their knot so soon!
Now I'm wondering when's my turn.. (:
But nah... I know, not so soon.
Don't really dare to imagine though.. haha, just enjoying the role of being her bridesmaid.. I guess that is the first step.
Marriage, a word so simple, yet so complicated.

Anyways, love that pair of birkenstocks'
And hopefully this is the last last time... i knowwww i knoww.. okay... byeee... (:

decided.

2010-08-10T17:07:00.002+08:00

made up my mind and that's it.
not gonna stone inside the shop and rot all day long.
cb.
just so you know.. all the bits and pieces made up huge resentments.
so, fuck yea~
i'm leaving (:

can i just jot down what is making me so unhappy about work? when it seems so good.
argh forget it. 4 words, i just don't like.

bye for good.

2010-08-08T20:09:00.002+08:00

headache. bad one here.
and in fact i slept for like half an hour in the shop.
sucks. this throbbing pain sucks.
cb..........

Is it this?

2010-08-06T23:26:00.004+08:00

The feeling of emptiness and loneliness.
because i only have you and if you reject me I'm left with nothing else.

PMS.

2010-07-05T17:50:00.004+08:00

I'm sick.
I'm having PMS.
I'm tired.
I need my bed!
and a HUGE blanket!
and of course, tbj (:

2010-06-28T00:33:00.002+08:00

one week, and gone in a blink.

i feel loved, thank you(:

how are you?

2010-06-16T23:14:00.003+08:00

with or without valid reasons.
i kept it safely....

When things are taken for granted.

2010-06-15T00:27:00.003+08:00

I wonder how, what, why and when..
wondering and still wondering..

Tuesdays with Morrie

2010-06-12T16:53:00.003+08:00

"learn how to give out love, and to let it come in."

Let it come in, we think we don't deserve love, we think if we let it in we'll become too soft.

but a wise man named Levine said it right.
"Love is the only rational act"

2010-06-12T00:55:00.003+08:00

"Have I told you about the tension of opposites?" he says.
The tension of opposites?
"Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn't. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you shouldn't.
A tension of opposites, like a pull on a rubber band. And most of us live somewhere in the middle."

Sounds like a wrestling match.

He laughed and said yes, you could describe life that way.

So which side wins?

He smiled and said, "love wins. Love always win."

lost.

2010-06-02T14:05:00.002+08:00

what now? i think i might be a gemini.
i think i got serious split personality now.
and i dont fit taurus well enough.
im not as strong as what you define as an ox.

what to do now?

perhaps its true?

2010-05-20T17:01:00.002+08:00

another month to go.
how's my mood?
needless to say.
mm, sometimes being understanding isn't easy.
my mind says this, but my heart says that.

i have to remind myself time and again..

it isn't easy, trust me.

Can you see the white flag above me?

2010-05-16T01:18:00.002+08:00

because i gave up to you, life.
i no longer want to control you, because u overtook me.
you choose your own way, im not gonna obstruct u.
perhaps, what's given there is the right decision...

because i won't.

2010-05-03T17:21:00.002+08:00

don't need you to do so because you know what's going on.
among all, your's was the one i least expected most.
though it was of the same thing, its written clear enough that it was nothing but hypocrite.
so just jolly well don't waste the energy.

i doubt you have anyone true though.
sick of ur dramas, sick of you and everything.

people tell lies...
white lies to make you feel at ease.
lies which made ppl cry.
lies which broke people's heart.
lies which perhaps make ppl happy to deceive themselves.

i dont know which category you fall into. but, i don't appreciate whatever shit you have given me.
seriously, just back off.

because i know this ain't true at all.
and this is no longer in my dictionary.
I gave up hope and no longer keen anymore.
Doesnt matter anymore...

one by one, people steps into your life unknowingly.
one by one, people leaves you.
Well, i wish you good, I wish you all the best...
go ahead.
you need not show me how happy you are, because i won't feel a single prick.

So ya, it was all a beautiful nightmare.
bye.

how now?

2010-05-02T03:40:00.002+08:00

Perhaps you are clear of what you have said, but i doubt you thought before u spoke.
and im hurt.
i don't care if i have to hang the damn bloody phone if that makes ur blood boils or not.
all i know is, i think it would be better to hang the phone before I start saying things i would regret.
If you are raging inside, this would at least brighten me cause I know you do care.
But are we being child-like in the first place?
Arguing over trivial matters which aint suppose to be?
I said i don't wanna throw my temper when you are having ur offs. I know you wanna enjoy, but, for the entire whole day, your calls were all in a rush to hang.
You don't know because you didn't realise until I tell you.
What if I don't? You will never understand, don't you?

i don't wanna say anymore.
how long can this last?
everytime we argue, you will bring up the damn bloody past.
just kill me la huh. (sometimes i wonder how ppl got the courage to even commit suicide. sibei zai.)
tired of everything.
fuck it seriously.

im left with nothing now.
so empty, and do you even care?

tmr's the 3rd, would there be wishes from the ones i expected?
sighh~~~

headache.

2010-04-09T13:04:00.000+08:00

headache since ytd noon.
oh no, dont tell me its migraine, or sthg that kind ):
its just heaty right bod?

bad weather, we all knw.
drink more water everyone.

troubled troubled troubled.
i dont wanna think anymore.
i shall just give.
forget it seriously.

crap life.....
life's unfair. that's it.
people who don't how to appreciate can really go and die.
seriously.

all i want is to see tbj.
i miss everything bout you ):
sigh~

adviseeee..?

2010-03-30T14:26:00.001+08:00

hmm, i think i will just stick to my plan.
i dont wanna tire myself out.
and yaa, i got plenty of time still.

just take it slowly.
it should be fine. ((:

hungry.

2010-03-13T00:21:00.002+08:00

boo hoo hooo, so hungry.
i dont wanna stuff myself with bread again.
cause i wil have lots of nutella, and i will defenitely have sore throat tmr.
tsk.
and tbj isnt calling me.
called u once, called u twice, called u thrice or more i think?
guess u are playing game or whatso ever ever..
nvm.. i am still fine.
not angry, not upset, not unhappy, not moody, still thinking of the bright side.

its another day again.
tmr would be a better day!
SOOO smileeeeeeeeeeeeeee.........

I don't have a guidebook here.

2010-03-12T01:48:00.004+08:00

Don't I deserve that little moment of yours to have a little sense of security..?
Sigh.. So tired, good night.. Though it isn't a good one for me..

2010-03-11T10:11:00.002+08:00

I don't like.
The feelings' so weird:(
do you..?

Finally!

2010-03-11T02:46:00.000+08:00

Somehow, I just feel something is missing.
But I don't know what it is.

Anyway, flight confirmed and I'm flying on 8th of April! (:
630am's flight and I wonder how I'm gonna make it there by 430am or so..
Hmm..

I wanna go on a holiday!
I wanna go to some island and spend quality time.

Seriously time flies.
Another few more weeks it's gonna be April.
And after my trip back it's soon gonna be my birthday..
Universal studio? Sentosa..? resort? Plans oh plans.. What to do..??

and after May, it's June!
And it's half of 2010 alr..
Woah!! By then I'm so gonn make plans for holidays again!!

I hate the fact that ppl are so obsessed with Nicholas sparks because of the movie 'dear john'!
His books are nowhere to be found now!:(

finally.

2010-03-10T00:02:00.002+08:00

finally i feel myself some sense of completion!
passport renewed and collected.
IC's address changed.
updated paypal.
in the midst of booking air ticket.

alll checked!!
YAY!!
and i really cross cross cross my fingers that nthg goes wrong.
:S kinda worried though, army always chu stun one uh..
tsk~~

and its time for countdown again!!
3 more weeksssss to go!!!

2010-03-07T19:41:00.000+08:00

You will never understand me and neither will I ever understand u.
Why must we even be together?

delayed.

2010-03-01T19:35:00.004+08:00

great. i called them and they said, tentatively next year.
GREAT!
what now?
working like some ants, busy with nothing out of my own.
in fact, im not busy.
just some little stress and boredom.
seriously boredom is the main problem.
argh, fine.
shall save up and plan for some overseas trip.
mmm, let me plan.
plan slowly... (:
maybe i can get myself some labelled bags?? :D
oh, maybe one will be good enough.

hur hur, bj tan. i want a new pendant!
i miss yakun with you.

delayed.

2010-03-01T19:35:00.001+08:00

I never knew.

2010-02-25T16:04:00.001+08:00

Hello, make it faster will you..? (:
I wanna grow up badly.......

pointless.

2010-02-22T22:29:00.001+08:00

pointless.
whatever seriously.
ahh, fucked up.
not my problem anyway.

better off by myself.

i need a break.

2010-02-19T19:54:00.000+08:00

LSJ NEEDS A BREAKKKKKKK LIKE SERIOUSLY!
I WANNA RELAC LA DEYY...........

bkk, tioman, bkk and more holidays!!
(: (:
TBJ allow me to go tioman pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee????

argh, i wanna study!
i wanna go back to study!

oh my my..
i realised when i stop watching videos, time passes by quicker.
HAHA, weird uh.
and this is the reason i hate to watch teeeebeee.... :D

Lucky.

2010-02-16T18:34:00.002+08:00

That's the nice part when ur bf has another twin brother. though u r back to Thai, I can still hear u n imagine that's u!
Even the laughter and the way both of u cough, it's the same!! Haha!!
But after being fully awake, I realized it's not u. Kinda sad though.
But still, it's okay:)
I can wait!
N I really do miss u.

Ah well, I am reall really tired!

Good night world!:)

cny.

2010-02-13T00:29:00.002+08:00

let me summarise what is cny.
stress for the moms.
fun for the kids.
boring for the grown ups.
a time to escape if possible for married couples.

hmm, so what do we usually do on cnys?
eat, eat, eat, and still EAT. (:
am i right?

this is the only thing im looking forward, the third day to omni's hse.
otherwise cny is really meaningless without omnis, and of course TBJ!

boooooooooooooo~~!!!!!!!!!
anyway im really excited.
like finally, after all the counting down, and 13th is here! (: (:

shall see you real soon tmr. (:

2010-02-09T20:50:00.002+08:00

tired = you got the rights to show attitude.
HA HA HA HA HA.
whatever.

:) everything affects

2010-02-06T01:05:00.002+08:00

Hoping for a better tmr!! And I'm prepared for our ww4 tonight!
:) Meiqin get well soon from ur broken heart and ditch him hard!
Worthless guy!
Fuck that girl seriously.
Fuck third parties.
Fuck these bitches!

Come to think of it, TBJ am I one too? :X
but u were mine long time ago! So not counted... :X

If ever one could love wholeheartedly.
SIGH!
Okay, Skip it~

Somehow I really wish I can go to Chinatown:(
I'm missing it.
Missing the atmosphere out there.
I thought it's our favourite place there? :(

imytbj.

2010-02-05T13:36:00.002+08:00

It's a slow process, don't pin high hopes please. :(

Tired

2010-02-05T00:38:00.002+08:00

Tired in and out.
I guess u have ur own world there.
It's difficult...

2010-02-02T00:28:00.002+08:00

My heart aches when u sigh.
I don't know what the reason is.. And I don't feel like asking.
Good night.

2010-01-31T21:45:00.004+08:00

I fucking slipped the nail polish and broke it in my room!
Sigh... So many things to do alr, still wanna add more work for me.
Seriously resenting myself.
Fuck.

Actually it doesn't sound that bad. I just wanna change my room's tile color.
Hmm... Cny's round the corner I have to make changes.
Hmm...

2010-01-31T02:59:00.002+08:00

It's for life.
The world just seem meaningless.
Fuck off seriously.
Fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u!!!!!!!!!!!
Just fuck off!!!!! I don't know how on earth to vent my anger. I need the sea I need the vast ocean to scream my lungs out!!!
FUCK OFFFFFFF!!!!

2010-01-28T23:28:00.001+08:00

stay strong LSJ!
everything's will be over soon!

byebye.

2010-01-28T17:08:00.001+08:00

lesson learnt.

I'm sorry

2010-01-27T15:01:00.003+08:00

I was a fool because I fool around.
Now I've learnt my lesson what's more do you want?

Im feeling so terrible now.
I no longer dare to even raise my voice to talk.
Really sorry. :(

feeling like shit now.
Please leave me alone.

:(

2010-01-26T11:39:00.002+08:00

It's bothering me:( though it seems harmless.
but I really don't know what it is la. :(
stress:( sigh!

:(

2010-01-22T23:46:00.001+08:00

Sorry :(

lucky me and you. (:

2010-01-18T18:30:00.000+08:00

and yes, its confirmed. and approved (:
thank goodness!

(: no more second time of scaring please.

and yes, im still counting down (:

<3

hello blogger.

2010-01-17T13:33:00.003+08:00

hello.
you miss me not?
i think ive forgotten bout u. just for a moment only, dont be jealous k?
:S

how's it going?
pretty well (:

in fact, i hate you evan.
i miss ph.
but i know i cant.
:X

cut down club cut down club cut down club.
u are not doing anything to cut down club seriously.
boo to ur new year resolution!

and, this morning mom lifted up my shirt saying,
"fade alr" HAHAHAHA! cute uh!
means what? want me to go touch up uh?
HAHAHA!
(:

and me is loving many many my second attempt (:
loving my new toy too (:

oooo! im so loved again!
i want cny to come quick!
dont be late!!

hungry!

2010-01-09T14:34:00.000+08:00

OMG IM SO HUNGRY!
but the thought of fep's food.
AHHHH! tts sianzationnnsszxzszx times many many!

YAWNSSSSSSSSSSS.
):

ignorance's a bliss.

2010-01-05T01:34:00.003+08:00

okay now blogger.
before i have my eyelids shut till it open for another long day,
this is something i wanna blog about.

ignorance is a bliss.

and, 'cant be bothered' attitude is what im trying to be (:

why think so much bout others when you cant even make a decision out of ur own?
why stress and make urself depress when you jolly well know that you cant get a proper answer in the end?

no point.
no use.

trying to get my old self back.
independent is that word.
why am i being so sensitive, so childish, so possesive againnnn?
sigh, this isnt a good thing. why am i missing you so much?

i hate la sial, seriously.
missing someone isnt fun, its more of torture.
i thought its 2010, why am i still living in the year 2008 and 2009?!
goodness!
its seriously time for me to wake!

sigh sigh sigh.
people who fall in love turns dumb, and weedo weedee stupid!
HAHA. LOSER.

and last but not least, i have it pierced again (:
me like it very very much!

lola got more zai not? (:
seriously cant wait for my nxt ink.
money drop from sky pleaseeee?? (:

bye world.

2010!

2010-01-01T14:53:00.002+08:00

everythings finally over.
hate 2009 to the core!
even the last party was kinda boring.
HAHAHAH :X
but stil me love gatherings, and get high!
but i wasn't drunk, just talking LOUDLY only.
:S

anyways, 2010 is loved loved loved!
how i wish, 2009 can be erased. (: right oms?

anyway, dyed my hair red again (:
love it ttm! (:
but my rashes on my face, cui ttm! ):

NB!

BUT, mom still loves me as much (: horrsxzx.
YAY!
2010 i seriously welcome you sial. (:

cheers ppl!

you made me think again.

2009-12-31T00:31:00.002+08:00

im not asking for a time out.
sigh.

could you tell me straight what you want exactly?

???

2009-12-29T14:47:00.003+08:00

??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

so many question marks in my head.

mm, are you gonna fill me in?

what you said touched my heart.
but what you are doing aint the same.

mmmm...

do you? do i?

2009-12-28T13:43:00.002+08:00

approx one more week to go before u leave for another 3 more months.
this sucks big time.
i will stay good for real.
):

and whats our new resolution?!!
CUT DOWWN CLUBBING!!!

at first, i was saying QUIT, but om said not possible, so yaa man.
cut down!!
weee~
by then, my pocket would be damn full!
ME LIOOKEE max max max!!!

things i wanna do and i have to do!:

-cut my damnn fringe
-go on diet
-save save save!

and, 26th dec 2009 was well loved!
(: (:
once again,
HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY LAU YEW TING!
LAST DAY LAST WARNING!
ME LOVE YOUUU! (: and you are always the last (:

back.

2009-12-26T19:38:00.003+08:00

forgiven.
but, as said, they bound to be barrier in between.
2 weeks aint enough to mend the pass 3 months.
i guess both of us kinda got use being alone.
lineless in sg?
mm... been waiting for ur call since ytd night.
but im not really getting upset and all.
but still, imy.

im gonna have fun tonight.
its okay if you dont join.
cause i know you will get bored too.
and i dont wish to be your irritating baby calling ur brother or friends bout your whereabout.

uh huh.
hopefully you didnt forget tmr's my off day.
and hopefully im able to find you at home.

imyb <3.

monday was loved.

2009-12-22T15:37:00.002+08:00

mended (:

correction: "its glued all along "
<3

i've been good.

2009-12-17T02:01:00.002+08:00

quality time was well spent.
get well soon om (:

"oh santa, ive been good, would you grant me my wish pleaseee?"

bitch.

2009-12-14T00:11:00.001+08:00

i regretted.
):

must i eat like 3 months of vege to atone?
haaa.
aye, hoping for the best laa.

2009-12-13T19:25:00.002+08:00

police raid at ph for the first ever time i step in.
dj finally change his songs. and we all love!
many familiar faces.
and i embarrassed myself and another girl who has the same dress.
food at 126 was nice, but billing experience wasnt nice.
paiseh ttm!
& fuck you joy. having no soap and shampoo at home.
you are a bad bad host!
kick you out of our flower groooup thn you knw!

"i shouldnt have let you go, 7 months aint that simple"

guilt.

2009-11-29T19:16:00.002+08:00

mom found out i smoke.
told me to quit before i get addicted.
im still thinking im addicted or not.

anyway, i will cut down, and be a social, in fact i stil think that i am a social!
because for the whole day i've yet to touch one stick!

powerhouse last night was what Om said, same routine, same thing.
but the problem is, if we go elsewhere we will miss ph for sure!

& Riduan fucking smile at me!
HAHA!
nice (:

& I fucking lost someone's jacket.
and got scammed for like $35 :X

okay dont think its appropriate to complain here.

I AM REALLY REALLY TIRED!!
slept for about 4 hours or lesser ):
and sales today isnt good, im kinda showing attitude which i dont like.

but i was told tmr's my off day and same for wed!
this made me smile (: (:
like seriously!

o well, im hoping it taste nice.
HAHA ><

i choose to.

2009-11-20T20:32:00.002+08:00

WORK HARD PLAY HARD ROMANCE HARD!

so coool right....??? (:
HAHA!!

sometimes its fun.

2009-11-17T12:52:00.002+08:00

like seriously, i want you to fucking come back now!
i wanna pick a fight!
im really full of anger!

life's a crap.

2009-11-15T15:52:00.003+08:00

i dont knw what i want now.
HAHA.
i feel aimless, i feel as though i got nothing.
studies delayed, and im spending all my money away like nobody's business.
2010 is coming, and i am really scared.
sigh!

im a loser.

i really hate the fact, that they are all linked.
of all people, why them?!

crap. not just one, but the second one?

am i left with no choice?
damn.

what to do what to do.

2009-11-10T20:55:00.001+08:00

OMG OMG OMG!
EVAN LAU!I CANT WAIT TO PARTYYYYYYYYYY!!

I WANT MY FREEDOM BACK.
I DONT WANT TO BE TIED DOWN.
I WANT TO HAVE FUN.
I WANT TO HAVE MY HALF BACK INKED.
I WANT TO BE INDEPENDENT.
I WANT TO CARE NO MOREE.

i know.

2009-11-03T13:39:00.004+08:00

"im glad you moved on.

im doing good.
and you dont have to worry anymore.

I'm sorry n thank you for everything.
happy and bad moments, it shall be kept as memories."

mom's sixth sense is killing me.
i need time to ammend everything.
and i know what im doing.
i will settle down soon, really soon.
promise.

sorry mom & dad.

2009-10-28T14:52:00.000+08:00

dont understand.

last.

2009-10-24T17:38:00.002+08:00

coughing badly.
who's fault?
my fault.
damn.
oh, and partly because of KFC.

cant resist! seriously... thigh pleaseee?? (:

im broke again.
and i dont even knw when i can get my pay.
and im really at a lost.
i was told i trust people too easily.

and i find my life really tiring.
who put me through all these shit?

sigh.
wrong decision, wrong choice.
regretted.

let me find a chance to end then.
i wanna settle down, but i cant.
i dont wanna settle down because i want freedom.

so hard to please, so hard to solve.
sigh sigh sigh.
i wish im a bird.

HAHAHAHA!
bye sucker!

i promise.

2009-10-20T12:24:00.002+08:00

Sweet, i promise i won't.
you are my one and only.
and i do miss you as much!
real bad! please come back soon!!
deng ni orhhhhhsss!
promise after this sat, i will stop till you are back.

love you so much laaaaa! (:

misfortune or carelessness?

2009-10-17T19:31:00.000+08:00

my watch died at Sentosa.
my phone got stolen by some CCB!

doesnt matter bout the value of the phone.
but what really matters is all the info i have inside.

sigh, feel so empty nw.
wrist gone. phone gone. everything's gone.

shake head~

let me strike lottery leh.. TSK

electro vs r&b.

2009-10-17T13:52:00.000+08:00

shuffle? not my kind.
tecktonic? 1 day skill. i like! (:
r&b? we all love!

omni's pre celebration!
zirca is damn ex ex ex!
twenty pie dorlar.
but nebermind. omni harpi can oleady (:

true enough, ytd night was loved!
i wish you were here omni lau!
we all miss you like kraaazyyyy!

and fuck with all those conflicts!
my red hoodie gone like tht!

damn! she's a sexy bitch!
hot hot hot!

reminisce.

2009-10-16T14:57:00.002+08:00

been reading all my post since Feb 2008,
and i realised i have changed a lot.

back thn, i was so young so innocent so childish.
saw the changes, well, i am really glad.

thanks, and yes, im loving myself more.

soft.

2009-10-15T20:27:00.002+08:00

i need hardener.

thanks.

her departure.

2009-10-13T00:16:00.001+08:00

ONE WORD = SAD

i thought we all could really make it without crying.
but, i really couldnt hold myself.

im so gonna miss u LAU YEW TING! ):

Sigh, its just 4 weekends, but its gonna be damn long.
please please please take good care of yourself!

Come back in one piece, dont get stab k? (:
I love you.